Never Have I Ever


We are getting to the part of the story where I tried drugs for the first (and only) time in my life. It is not something I will ever do again, and you will see why.

My last post was about how I got to the big graduation party and started pouring myself drinks that were way too strong. I was on my third one when my lab partner from biology class approached me and asked if I wanted to play a game. Already beyond tipsy by this point and too drunk to be nervous, I said sure.

We sat around a table, and everyone had a red cup. We all held up five fingers and went around a circle starting a sentence with “Never have I ever…” and then admitting to something we’d never done. If we hadn’t done it, we had to put down a finger and take a big drink. The loser was whoever had all their fingers down first because they had done the least things. Everyone kept nudging each other and joking about how the loser was really the winner, and they get a big prize at the end.

Needless to say, as one of the most inexperienced people in the group, so my fingers went down after five people took their turns. I was the loser.

I was already wasted at this point, but having a great time. I knew I was drunk, but I didn’t care. This would probably be the last time I saw most of these people. Why not live a little?

When the game was over everyone cheered, and I was confused because even though I lost, some of them were saying how jealous they were. I didn’t understand why until someone pulled out a little baggie of white powder.

The guy with the bag dumped a little bit out on the table and carefully formed a thin line of the substance. He rolled up a dollar bill and told me to put one end in my nose and snort the powder.

Normally, of course, I would have the sense to know this was very, very bad. But I was so drunk at this point that I wasn’t acting like myself. I was caught up in the moment, enjoying the alcohol buzz and all the attention I was getting from everyone. Encouraged by their cheers, I snorted up the whole line in one go.

Here you can find some ways to say no if you are offered drugs or alcohol, and believe me, it’s really better to read!